sometimes i just want to be smoking cigarettes naked in an apartment in a big city while listening to a velvet underground record and writing down terrible things but then other times i want to fuck off from the city forever and live alone in the woods in a hole in the ground where no one can find me???
this is frighteningly on point.
I need trees. I need woods. I need that so much. I know it would be so much easier to be centered always if I were to live in a woodsy area. Or if I did end up actually going to the redwoods. I love Richmond dearly and it already has a special place in my heart but god I miss the green simplicity. I need rolling mountains, isolation, no shoes and my wrap skirts back. I want to hoop all day and not have to stay up all night writing a paper and be so disconnected. I miss the freeness. the serenity. I just miss the exhale.